Gotta' let the truth be told...

For a second I wish the tide would swallow every inch of this city, like a thousand miles of fire.

I know a lot of people that I wish I could help. It’s the worst feeling in the world knowing that someone is hurting on the inside and you cant do anything about it. How can you convince someone that they are worth something, that they deserve to be here, that they have a purpose in life? For example, my friend is possibly the sweetest guy ever. I mean he’s incredibly smart and he has such passion for his hobbies. A lot of things haven’t gone as planned for him but he’s working on it. I know he’s not happy and I really feel like there’s nothing that I can do for him especially since he past drug problems. How can I show him that there is more to life than meth? How can I tell him that there are so many things in his life that are good? He needs to stay around positive people. I just sometimes feel like being there for him and being his friend isn’t enough.

I'm back in Oklahoma. Whoops, typo "Oklahomo"
I've been in Houston for a couple of months. I like it there. It wasn't what I expected. I guess since last summer was so awesome.
I never really liked it here in Oklahoma, but I have my family here. But I have family it two different states. It's really hard to choose between two states and two families.
I think a big reason why I was so disappointed about the trip was because I was hoping to talk to Kevin. I still love him, and that's why it sucked so bad when I didn't even get to talk to him.
I wish that I could get over him, but I just can't. I'm stupid.
Maybe it really wasn't meant to happen..
I'm fucked up, and I know it.
There has to be something wrong with me.
I wish I could figure out what it is that I desperately need to be happy.