la la la- pictures in an exhibition

So me and paul had a long conversation lastnight..
Me and him have been dating for a few months.. but basically we both decided that it would be good to end our relationship.
I mean we both really like eachother but in the long run it would kind of be a dead end..
I want to go to dallas or Houston for the art school that I applied at but he doesn’t want to go to texas.
I mean I love loud busy cities and he likes quiet country..
And even if he did go with me I mean his job requires him to go out of town a lot. He could be gone for a week or two weeks. And be out every other night.
I cant be in a a relationship with someone and not see them everyday. I just cant.
He wants to move to Washington. Or like live near mountains. I mean we just realized that it wasn’t going to work.. it sucks be we figured it would be better for both of us to separate now before we got too attached. It would just be easier and we wouldn’t be as hurt with the whole situation. I mean I don’t want to but in the long run..
And he dosent want me to change my school. He dosent want to to base my life on him. He said that school and my career is more important that him.
And I don’t want to stop him from doing anything that he wants to do.
So we are just stuck.
We can be friends… if that works. Its hard to be friends with someone you like..
Im at work on my break right now. Listening to the beatles and death cab for cutie. Ive been up since 6am and I get off work around 8pm. Its not too bad but I probably shouldn’t have been up until 2am. Hahaha. But im just lame like that.
And I have to walk out clear to the street to smoke. Grr! Its kind of far the parking lot is huge!
But whatever. Well I guess its almost time to clock back in and start dinner. My tables have been good today and I got a comment card. It was a good one. They thought that I was very nice. Ha. Oh yeah. Im excited.
But my friend benjammen is coming to work with me! Im excited because some of the people I work with are like super rude and just have overall bad attitudes. I mean who want to live like that? Always being mad? I couldn’t enjoy life! I mean be happy.
But anyways. Damn my foot is asleep because of the way I was sitting in my chair. I hate that feeling.
Numb. Painful. Awkward but tickles..
Its weird.